DONOVAN LORD

Lyrics

They say love finds you when you stop looking
I never stopped

Too dark for the white boys
Too light for the other side
Learned how to read a room
Just trying to survive

Thought if somebody chose me
I’d finally feel alright
So I gave my heart away
Every single time

I was chasing every promise
Like it held my name
If somebody chose me
Maybe I wouldn’t feel ashamed

I was looking for the last lover alive
One heartbeat in the middle of the night
Somebody real in a world full of lies
Just one spark in the dark that’s all I tried
I gave my heart like it was my lifeline
Thought if he chose me I’d finally be fine
Through every almost and every goodbye
I was looking for the last lover alive

Blonde hair blue eyes
Said forever felt right
Wrote love in a letter
Then vanished overnight

When he said no chemistry
Something in me broke
Like maybe love was language
I was never meant to know

Every time I lost him
I lost myself too
I thought love was something
I had to prove

I was looking for the last lover alive
One heartbeat in the middle of the night
Somebody real in a world full of lies
Just one spark in the dark that’s all I tried
I gave my heart like it was my lifeline
Thought if he chose me I’d finally be fine
Through every almost and every goodbye
I was looking for the last lover alive

There were pills in my hand
And a silence so loud
I was done being strong
I was done being proud

Then the phone rang
The voice was his
I didn’t need saving
I just needed to live

I’m not looking for the last lover alive
I don’t need somebody else to survive
I found my voice in the middle of the night
Found my fire when I stopped asking why
Every heartbreak kept me alive
Every almost taught me to fight
Now I’m standing in my own light
I was always the last lover alive

Last lover alive
Last lover alive
Just one just one just one in my life

I’m the last lover alive

I’m the last lover alive